I’m glad to share that my freelance client has approved that last payment of project funds, even as we work to wrap up the current freelance project. Personally, I’m just really grateful that he approved the funds. The next one appears to be pending still, but I continue to maintain a positive attitude.
Tonight, I didn’t reach home until slightly after 10pm. Why? Because I was genuinely afraid of all the responsibilities that were waiting for me once I get home. As much as I know that these are my new responsibilities (still fairly new, all things considered), I must admit that they can be quite overwhelming at times, especially during the first two weeks of the month.
What I’ve done earlier tonight feels a lot like I’m just trying to buy time. Buy time for myself to deal with some of those responsibilities when I can. Look man, it’s not that I don’t want to deal with these responsibilities. Lord knows, if I could, I would deal with them first thing and I would never delay a responsibility. Those that do know me long enough will know that when times were better, I always made sure that I kept to my commitments every single month. Even if making those payments would make me a little uncomfortable some times.
You know the truth? I enjoyed that feeling afterwards. That feeling of, “I feel good that I have met all my responsibilities this month. I did what I needed to do even if it made me uncomfortable.”
I wonder if I’m the only one whose occasionally afraid of facing my responsibilities. I honestly just wish that things weren’t this challenging right now. I wished I had the funds necessary to meet all of my financial commitments.
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