Tonight, I want to reflect on two things before I go focus on my current freelance project. I want to take a moment to talk about “keeping it real” in my life. Throughout my years of seeking professional help, the one thing that I’ve always told to do is to “keep it real”. But I always struggled with it for the longest time because I found it hard to be totally authentic and real with others, not when everyone else is also trying to fit in, or feel accepted. It wasn’t until my late 30s that I started to experience the benefits of being real and authentic with those around me. Let me be absolutely clear, it is not an easy thing to be totally authentic and genuine with others. Over the years, through my own efforts to be more authentic and genuine, I’ve also lost plenty of people that I once thought were my friends.
Today, thanks to this community of readers/writers, I have found people who share the same belief and principles. People who also believed deeply in the need to be authentic and genuine towards others. It is by being a part of this community that gave me the courage to really open up. I shared recently that I’ve been holding back. And the moment I began to open up, that is when I really started to encounter others that were going through a similar experience. I knew I wasn’t alone, and vice versa.
It is through my own experiences of keeping it real (not just with myself, but also with others) that I began to really learn how to make the best of what I have, and who I am (my talents and skills). Unless we can be totally honest with ourselves (both the good and the ugly), we will never be able to truly become the best that we can be. And that is same with the things that we have, our finances, our mental state, our studies, our careers, our family situation, etc. Once we are able to face the reality of our situation, who we are, and what we have that we can begin to answer, “How can I make the best of this?”, or “What can I do to make this situation better?”
Tonight, as I switch my attention over to my freelance gig (it’s the first good one in a while, and that is the honest truth), I am reminding myself that all I have is this right now. Sure, there is a potentially for more to come if I do this really well. But what really matters right now is not what might be in the future, but really how I’m going to make the most of this very moment, this very freelance opportunity. So that is what I aim to focus on tonight.
Meanwhile, I will continue to keep my faith in God. By choosing to focus on my freelance project tonight, this is my act of faith. My way to tell God that I continue to trust that He will provide for me everything that I needed.
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