There’s honestly nothing much that I want to say today. Except that I’ve learned this morning that I’ve lost about 4 kgs just in the last two weeks alone. Not because I have been working out or dieting. But because I have been skipping my daily lunches. And when I do allow myself to eat something, it’s also not an actual meal. It’s really just a small bite. And right now, I can only do that roughly once a week. Just like today.
I’m trying to look on the brighter side of things though. I mean, if anything, I might just achieve one of my new year resolutions in the coming weeks. I estimate…maybe 3 more weeks. At the current rate of progress, I think I’ll drop about 2 kg per week just by skipping my lunch.
While I was eating that bun (S$1.20) you see over there, and drinking that cup of coffee (S$1.30), all I can think about is some sadness that my life had turned out the way that it did. I accepted some of the blame for the situation that I may have put myself in, but I am also somewhat frustrated by how unanticipated the whole journey had been. There were unforeseen challenges and obstacles along the way that even my meticulous and paranoid self couldn’t detect. That says a lot.
Anyway, I promised I won’t be saying much. See what happens when I begin ranting?? Anyway, I’ve spent the last of my coins fam. It is official. I am broke. Except that 10 cent coin left inside my pouch. But it won’t buy me anything.
Okay, so, yes, I am feeling sadness right now. But it’s not just sadness that I’m feeling. I am also filled with genuine gratitude. I am grateful that in spite of how dire my circumstances are right now, I can somehow feel a tiny little bit of hope. I’m not quite sure where that is coming from right now, but I am not questioning it. I’m just thankful that there is hope (somehow).
Anyway, I really need to figure something out by this weekend. And hopefully with God’s divine intervention/help, I can finally turn this whole shitty situation in my life around. Today’s daily devotion helped to remind me of that. Have any of you read my daily bread entries? How did you find them? Were they helpful to you too? I know these daily devotions mostly speaks to my situation, but who knows, maybe one of you reading it might find that it also speaks to your own circumstances. I dunno. Just thinking out loud here.
Alright, I’m gonna go guys. I really just wanted to check in with my WordPress fam, and loyal readers. I hope that you have a better weekend (need to repeat it to myself too).
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