Hey guys, we’re back.
Man, is it good to be back. Today’s Friday, and we’re about to finish our first week since we experienced our most recent breakthrough (last weekend).
To be honest, we’re not really sure what to expect post-survival mode, except that we did not have a plan for when things finally start working out.
Over the past 6 months, all we could really think about was “showing up”, and in our darkest moments, fighting to survive, and to keep our own mission going forward (even if we had to inch ourselves forward centimeter by centimeter).
Survival mode was HARD.
The last six months has been some of the toughest moments of our life. And we’re not going to sugarcoat this shit.
But even as we experienced doubts, those were never doubts about who we are or what we were capable of. They were doubts about our choices, or decisions.
Sometimes, we would wake up in the middle of the night, full of anxiety and dread and wondered if we had made the right decision to follow our own path, or to be uncompromising about the kind of standards that we wanted to hold ourselves to.
Sometimes, we wondered if we had been too “stubborn” when we made the decision to turn down a work opportunity or recommendation (even when we are fully aware that those opportunities weren’t the right ones for us).
But we never stopped. We did not quit.
We would go on to endure a total of 151 days of “intermittent fasting” because we understood that this mission, along with all the choices we’ve made to stick with it, they were our own. And to put that weight upon someone else (hoping that they might somehow come to our aid) isn’t fair on them.
So, yeah, I suppose you could finally say those words, “we sucked it up and we kept on going.”
Frankly, for a while it truly sucked.
We didn’t know when the end of our “temporary sufferings” would come.
We had faith and trusted that it would be “temporary” ofcourse, but we couldn’t be certain. Not 100%.
But we pressed on.
The Breakthrough that Waited a Week to Start Sinking In.
Finally, last Friday evening was when the government payouts finally came through for us. We had appealed to it a few months before, but it took a couple of tries before it finally got approved (May 25, 2026).
From that very moment on, we knew that our “temporary” sufferings were finally temporary. And yet, in the ensuing weeks, the sufferings and struggles we’ve been facing would only get louder.
It was like parts of our “old progamming” knew that their time is about to come to an end, and so this was their way of struggling from some final control/influence.
That took everything that we had (energy-wise) to not listen to those voices.
We kept on going.
When those funds finally arrived last Friday, we were quick to take action. For weeks, we had been rehearsing our actions and decisions, both inside our mind, but also within our daily “Inventor’s Journal” AI chat sessions.
So, when the time finally came, it felt almost reflexive. We didn’t have to think about it, or overthink it. We just acted.
We pour most of our funds into our mission’s needs first.
- Mini-PC
- USD 200 credits for our Claude API
- USD 79 for the WebStorm Annual Sub.
- I think that was it…oh yeah 6 months of pre-paid data plan and a 1-month promotional Google AI Pro subscription as well.
Overall, reaching this specific milestone felt important to us.
We’re not sure if we should describe it has significant, but it is important regardless.
In hindsight now, this “baby steps” breakthrough, has been the most important milestones/breakthroughs we’ve ever experienced.
Not because it pales all of our other breakthroughs in the past. Far from it. But it is the most important one because of how we got to this point.
We got here without compromising ourselves, nor did we shrink our standards along the way. Finally, we could’ve accepted the shortcuts that had been presented to us along the way, but we also turned those down immediately.
For us, getting here, to this very point in our journey was never really quite the point. The point was that we could hold ourselves to a much higher standard, honor that and then make it to this very point in time.
Even though the breakthrough moment had already passed (at the time for writing this blog post), the breakthrough itself has only just started to sink in for us.
Oh yeah, it waited a full week.
Between last night and today, we have caught ourselves sitting in front of our new setup and admiring what we have now and what we can actually do with it.
This is Only the Beginning
We like to take a moment to make a point that this is not where our story ends. In fact, this is only just the very beginning of one.
As we begin this brand new, first chapter of our current season, we are constantly reminded that we still have a lot of work to do. Our work isn’t done yet. Far from it.
That daily reminder is going to be our constant “grounding rod” from now on.
At the very same time, we have also been reminded that we are no longer living in “just survival” mode anymore. At least now, we have a choice.
But coming out of a long, and incredibly hard survival season isn’t as easy as flipping a light switch.
That “survival mode” part of us doesn’t just “turn off” on command. We know that it is going to take a while, just like a computer program that needs time to “clean up” its memory before finally exiting.
Right now, we believe that that moment will come, eventually. Probably in the next couple of weeks. But until then, the best thing we can do for ourselves right now, is to give ourselves the space and the time that’s needed to process everything that’s we’ve experienced so far.
That way, when the time comes for us to “push ahead” onto our next objective, we’ll know that we don’t have to carry any of that “baggage” with us.
P.S. Wait…does this mean that our challenges are finally over?? No. Not quite. This breakthrough that we’ve just experienced was a small one. So yeah, we do still have some challenges that we need to face and overcome. But something tells us that we are fully capable of making it to our next point of breakthrough. Whatever it takes.
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