It’s been more than 8 years since I’ve last blogged in private. Well, maybe not entirely private. This personal blog site will still be viewable by some people, but I’m “removing” all of my personal contents away from my eventual website that’ll be dedicated to all of my STEAM contents in the near future.
I’ve posted a YouTube video earlier, the main goal, to let my 7 subscribers know that I won’t be posting any videos for the next 18 months or so (unless I feel like there’s something major to update i.e. milestones, career moves, etc). You can watch it here:
There are TWO main reasons that I’ve highlighted in my video today.
- Main Reason – It’s time to let my work do the talking. I want to focus on my ebook that I aim to self-publish by Q4 2023.
- Secondary Reason – As someone who believes deeply in being authentic online, I feel that the social media community in general is just not ready for people like me to be truly authentic.
Something else that I’m also focusing on right now, is to secure a full-time job. I do hope that I can find something in the tech space, but I am also pretty open to any kind of job at this point. Someone from Amazon’s Talent Acquisition team wrote me an email yesterday afternoon and presented me with a Senior Solutions Architect position. I already responded to it expressing my keen interest and now I’m just waiting to hear back from her.
A few close calls
I had a few close calls in recent months when it comes to job hunting. Taking those experiences into consideration, I’ve realized that I actually stand a much better chance when applying to roles related to Pre-sales, or Evangelistic type roles. I also had one very close call with a potential dream career too.
Eventhough nothing worked out so far, that last one really brought some hope.
I won’t lie though, I am still feeling a little tired and disappointed that things haven’t worked out even though I’ve been hunting for a tech job for the better part of the last 6 months.
Hope, Faith, and Miracles
One of my biggest personal challenges lately has to do with my hope and faith. In between not having a stable job and my current financial challenges, I’ve been trying to hold on to the hope that God will make a way for me. I’ve been doing A LOT of prayer before bed in recent days. In my prayers last night, I acknowledged something that I have never truly admitted it before. So last night, I admitted that as much as I want to say, “I have faith”, or “I choose to have faith that…”, I’m not sure I really have faith…because I’m also experiencing a high level of fear. Fear of disappointment. The fear of being letdown if I choose to have faith in God, but nothing happens.
On the note of miracles though…I’m not 100% sure either. I mean, I like to think that there have been moments in my life where God really delivered a miracle and brought me out of an impossible situation. If I really sit down and try to recall some of those moments, I think I can describe a few of them. So there’s a part of me that do believe that God can perform miracles. But I’m also kinda afraid to ask for it, or expect it. I am most certainly hoping for one right now.
Anyway, I think I’m going to stop right here. I could use a distraction to take my mind off my worries and focus on something else for now. I will continue to do my best to trust that God will always take care of my needs. He has been doing that for the last few years, I believe He will continue to do the same today, in this very moment. Amen.
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