Hey guys, so, let me just start out by saying that I haven’t been having a lot of good days lately. Each day, somehow, I kept feeling like my hope is drifting further and further away from me. It’s like that moving goal post analogy that we would sometimes describe a goal/objective. Somehow, I feel the same way about my own hopes and what lies ahead in the immediate future for me. Honestly, I am doing my best to keep my head down and focus on what I can control (right now, that is my freelance work), but otherwise, it is those in between moments when my mind would begin to wander.

So yeah, I’m here to admit that lately, I have been pushing myself a lot harder because it is genuinely much easier and better than to stop and start thinking about all the stress and anxiety that is lurking around the corners waiting for me. Maybe it is classic avoidance. Maybe I’m really just trying to buy myself more time so that I can deal with those issues/responsibilities when I am finally able to deal with them. Right now, I just don’t have the means or the mental capacity to go deal with those issues. And no, I genuinely don’t think that I am avoiding anything. I just…I can’t deal with them literally right now. If I have the means, Lord knows, I will immediately take care of all those commitments, here and now. But yeah.

Anyway, moving on guys. Today has been one of the very rare days and moments where I feel like I have something to be proud of and celebrate even in the midst of all the challenges in my life right now. For the very first time since my part-time studies ended, today has been my most productive day yet. Now, bear in mind though that I am still working with limited hardware and so, with my current setup, I can really only go “so fast”. But what I liked most about my day today is that it wasn’t that much about the speed. It was more of that concentration level, that level of focus. I tested (as thoroughly I can be) and clear a total of 9 issues out of the 11 that were identified during demo yesterday. Actually a few of the issues were my own observations. But yes, they are included as well. So, I cleared a total of 9 issues today! This is definitely a record for me. I mean, think about it man, even at my max hardware capable speed and capacity, I already can clear 9 issues in a day. Mind you, some of those issues were tricky and required some investigative work. They were not straightforward, easy-to-solve issues.

Again, like I said, today wasn’t about the speed. Apart from the concentration level and focus, what I liked most is also the quality of my work today. I took my time to triple test, quadruple check my test results to ensure that I was consistently getting the intended outcome and behaviors. Even though I am genuinely limited by my hardware and there will be some thing I might miss as a result of my current limitations, I know that I have done my very best today. And as I make my way home tonight, I feel a sense of peace knowing that I didn’t leave any loose ends. And even if the client side does discover issues, I always happy to receive their feedback on where to improve and how to make the Satori PageBuilder the best that it can be!