So I had initially hoped that by today, I would’ve been done with the deep-dive online tutorial (currently still sitting in my drafts folder). But due to some personal challenges that I could no longer pretend isn’t there, I felt that maybe it’s time that I do a quick pause while I focus on my priorities.

Don’t get me wrong, I love tinkering with Telerik’s products. I’ve been supporting and using them since 2006. That should say something about my passion for the brand and their products. But my passion for their products aside, right now, I am facing some really steep uphill climbs of my own. After the recent setback in my job hunting efforts, I wasn’t expecting that it would affect me this much, but it did. It was so bad that I felt I really needed to take a moment to recollect myself. It was so bad I even thought about giving up on my long-term goal/mission.

So yes, it was really bad.

But ever since I started to reach out and put away my own pride/fear, I’ve also begun to experience the kindness and compassion from a few people that have reached out to me in return to offer their help.

This whole experience also led to today’s daily bread entry about a lesson in humility. God has showed me that sometimes it is our own pride that would get in our way, and not because others won’t help us. Sometimes, we have to let them help us (at least those that are willing and able).

It goes without saying. Today, I was able to experience the incredible kindness and compassion from other people. And that really humbled me.

Right now, my situation honestly hasn’t been fully resolved yet. So I’m really not in a place to feel relieved just yet. I think once I find the help that I need (in totality), I think I will be able to breathe a lot more easier. Right now, it’s just not the time to be relaxed yet.

As I head home this evening, I will continue to remain [somewhat] hopeful about what the future may bring. Until I can find a freelance gig and/or a full-time job, I can’t really say that things are better. Sure, as it is, my situation is improving and it is getting there. But I am not in that “better” state yet.

But I did managed to have lunch today. So that was nice. For many weeks, I have been skipping most of my lunch. My dedicated subscribers/readers will know this because I have been really honest and candid with them in my private entries. So yes, I am feeling really grateful that I finally got the chance to pay for lunch today.

Even with the current financial aid/assistance, I still don’t really have the surplus that I need yet. So I need to continue setting aside for the essentials first. So I’ll still likely skip my lunch tomorrow. Alternatively, I’ve also thought about putting into motion my new diet/lifestyle plan. Instead of eating lunch, and short of just drinking water all day, I am thinking of swapping that with a few chunks of watermelon. After all, I think watermelon has a high fiber content, so that should help to fill me until I get home in the late evening time.

Anyway, I believe this is a good time for me to put my plans into motion. Just because the financial support will help make things better, it doesn’t mean that I’m going to go back to spending the way I did before. As much as possible, I will try to keep my daily expenses as low as I can.

And yes, that means that I will continue my daily morning commute ➡️🚶even with the really hot weather 🌡️☀️.

Starting from next Monday however, I am planning to get up earlier every Mon, Wed and Fri so that I can do my morning commute earlier before the sun gets too hot. Hopefully that means I get to be less sweaty 💦 too.

Anyway, I’ll end my update here for today. Gonna go get a haircut. Lord knows I really need one. And then I’ll head over to Watsons to get a few personal care items before I head home.

P.S. I was really tempted earlier to pay for the WordPress monthly starter subscription. It says S$12 per month. But the yearly makes it S$60 a year. So…I finally decided against it. Sorry guys if your reading is constantly interrupted by the ads. I don’t think I am in a place to afford a yearly WordPress subscription right now.