A few years ago in 2018, I woke up one morning and for the first time in my life as a believer, I finally decided that I didn’t want to just be just a title anymore. For the very first time, I started to ask the most important question of all, “What does it mean to be a Christian?”

And so I began a whole series of “My Daily Bread” entries. The entry went on for nearly 2 years before I stopped my entries. I thought that I was done. That I had done enough. I believed that I had found all the answers to some of my most nagging questions regarding my own faith.

But let this be proof that I haven’t discovered all the answers. In fact, I think I never will…have all the answers. Thing is, it is impossible for us to know the entirety of God’s plan and purpose for our lives. All we can do is trust that at the right time, He will reveal to us the next step that you and I should take.

Right now, that next step seems to be restarting the whole “My Daily Bread” reflection entries again. My goal and mission when I first started this series remain the same today, it’s not just about carrying this title, “I am a Christian”, but rather, “how can I live my life in such a way [practically] that it reflects the Word of God?”

To me, the first lesson that I’ve learnt from the initial series is that it’s not about what we preach to others, but how we act, how we behave. Our actions, both in public and in private is a reflection of who we are as Christians.

Back-slided from God

So I want to begin my entry here officially. After spending many years straying from the path that God has given me, I’ve recently experienced something personal. It’s like God is calling me back into His embrace. For the last few years, I strayed away because I had become too self-reliant. I have been thinking to myself that I can do it on my own as long as I remember all of the lessons that He has given to me.

But that is not true. I’ve come to learn that lesson in the most painful way. As much as it important for us to be practical and realistic in the world we live in, we also need God to help guide us. We as human beings will always be limited in our own capacity.

So recently, in my own prayer to God, I’ve acknowledged that I can’t do it on my own. I can’t succeed or survive on my own. I’ve tried it, but with the challenges that I’ve been facing, my own strength and understanding is just not enough. I needed Him.

Start by Relying on God’s Wisdom

This is where My Daily Bread shall begin. From the wisdom of God. I must first start by expressing my deepest gratitude for all of the lessons (turned wisdom) that God has given me through the years. Those will surely benefit me for a very long time. But no, that alone won’t be enough. I know now that even with my past experiences and lessons, I still need to rely on God on a daily basis. I need to trust that He will give me the wisdom that I’m going to need on a daily basis.

Right now, when I think about my current financial circumstances and the new job that I have working in sales for a medical tech company, I’ll be asking God every morning for His wisdom and understanding. That it will guide me through the day (on top of everything that I’ve learned so far). I’ve recently reached out to someone for help too. And with what has been given to me, I am also praying for wisdom to know how to best manage my budget and daily expenses. It’s part of the lesson about good stewardship and being faithful in the little things.